2.45pm Friday 15th February
We have just climbed back into the car after a very filling lunch at the West End Cafe in Llandovery. Where else would you go at the end of your birthday week if you are Mr M and you love to eat? Miss Em is safely strapped into her seat and is continuing to practise her multiplication. She is just beginning to see the patterns within the numbers "Look Grandma, two times 62 is two more than two times 61. It goes in twos!"
She falls silent as she concentrates. Mr M is silent too as he keeps a wary eye on "...the Richard Cranium" in the car behind us while the Sunday Driver in front tries to decide whether to use all the gears in the gearbox or to keep top gear for best or for holiday travel only.
I used to drive a lot. I enjoyed driving. I would find a reason to drive every day if I could. These days I avoid it. I think about that briefly and realise it all stems from the time when the "fear" started. Can't go out through the door, can't be left alone in the dark, can't read a fiction book because I don't know the ending. So much fear filled my life.
Then I think some more about now. I CAN go out when I have someone with me, I can turn off the light on the landing when I go to bed - as long as Mr M is in the bedroom waiting :) . I can read fiction with only the slightest palpitation and have even managed a murder mystery! After ten years, I realise that the fear is ebbing away and real life is slowly filling that dark and evil place.
"Get the camera ready, we are nearly at Mam's crocodile" says Mr M and I grin as I press the button and make ready to take yet another picture at 50 miles an hour - see? a crocodile in the field.
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