Monday, 6 October 2014

Me on Monday - an awful down sort of a day

It's been a living in limbo, waiting for the inevitable sort of weekend. My dear, sweet, lovable, infuriating, practical, totally loving, funny, delightful Mother in Law was trapped in Alzheimer's Disease ten years or more ago. She has been "gone" for months, no longer able to walk or talk - oh how she loved to talk - or feed herself or do any of the ordinary things that give life dignity. This weekend we were told that there is absolutely nothing else to do now but wait. She is pain free and drifting slowly down.
Today it is the 58th anniversary of the day my in-laws made their marriage vows. My husband left early to go with his father to the nursing home and then to work. He will go back after he has finished his shift and this will continue until the end arrives. She cannot "Rage against the dying of the light" but I can, and I will.

Why on earth would anyone worship a god that could be so cruel? I am now confirmed in my atheism.

3 comments:

jo burton said...

I regularly read your blog but don't think I have commented before. So sorry to hear your sad news and I agree with you - we wouldn't let an animal suffer in such a way. I hope her passing will be peaceful.

Sian said...

I'm so very sorry to read this. I wish there was something else I could do, but from here all I can do is send you our thoughts. Thinking about you. x

Ruth said...

I'm thinking of you and your loved ones today. x